I'm proud of America.

P R I D E !

Can the rest of the world follow?

Being in love is so hard.
I think.
I'm not sure if I've ever been in love.
Fell in love.

I kinda wish I'd fall in love.
I'm not trying, but I'm waiting.

I do love people.
Friends.
Family.
♥♥

But it's not really the same.
Actually not at all.

The closest I've been to loving is a soulmate.

When your feelings are twisting and turning.
Jekyll and Hyde.

People are trying tell me, that I'm going to hell.
I think so too, but you don't need to remind me all the time.
I'm fine with that.

Actually, I don't even know if I believe in heaven or hell.
At least not heaven.
Or I don't know.

Please, the church of "our" Lord Jesus Christ, stop calling me.
And texting me.

Thanks.

Don't you think it's so sad, 
when you're pouring your eyes out while watching a movie, 
but you're not crying because of that movie.

Maybe you aren't loved widely
But you are loved deeply

I'm not afraid to say I love you
any more than I used to be, babe
I am scared to death, I am scared to death
to fall in love
with you

Well..

Everything was perfect yesterday.


Today - it's all hell.

All hell breaking loose.

All problems breaking loose.

Everything's becoming unsolved.

Everything's getting complicated.

Everyone's losing their mind.

Everyone's getting tired.

Future is shaky.


We're unstable.

Oh girl, we are the same
We are young and lost and so afraid
There's no cure for the pain
No shelter from the rain
All our prayers seems to fail

This is something I only used to dream of.
I'm excited.
I'm nervous.

I hope I won't be disappointed.
I'm wanting.
I'm waiting.

It's not up to me anymore.
It's up to her.
It's up to us.

I do know why you're jealous.

I know what I have.

I would be jealous too.

It's not my problem that you don't have it like me.

I understand why you're jealous.

But don't take it out on me.

I'm tired of other people telling me
How  I  f e e l
How  I  t h i n k
What  I  d o
What  I  d i d
Who  I  l o v e
Who  I  h a t e

You don't know me
And you most definitely are not me

I feel very insecure, very often.

I need reassurance - and want reassuring too much and too often.

I'm not perfect. No one is.
But I'm not even close to tolerable.

I'm not confident.
I'm troubled, uneasy, confusing and complicated.

I've tried to change for the people I love, but it's just part of my basic character to be annoying.

I've had trust issues lately.

I used to trust people more.
Now I don't know what/who is really there for me.

No one?
Everyone?
Anyone?

They say love is just a feeling,
but this is something more. Girl you got me flying', 
higher than ever before.

I've tried not to lose myself

Been through heaven been through hell

Through all that I came back to tell

If I had a chance to do it again

I'd know that you were heaven sent

I'd keep you by my side my friend