You fear something 'cause you fear death

I fear everything 'cause I fear you dying

It's a far off, impossible fear

But I don't want you to ever leave me

Selfish

I know

I'd like to start painting.

I can't paint at all.

Can you

See
A lot of
Various
Exits

My
Endings

?

What if I fall in love with you 
the right wrong way?

I've never met
anyone like you

I've never loved
or felt so true

It's not the same
'cause you're wild and blue

I lost the game
I gave up for you

I was never okay
Not before or after things happened

I was never fine
Because my life ended when I lost the one I loved the most

But I can live and I want to live

There are times when things get harder

I'll tell you when I can't cope alone

It's okay
empty stare

You can go
empty stare

I'll be fine
empty stare

I mean it, but you don't believe it

Because of my empty stare

I love you
But why do you love me?

I need you
But why do you need me?

D o    y o u   ?

I want you
But why would you want me?

No one wants me
I don't want me

N o t    a n y m o r e

I told you I was hurt
B l e e d i n g   o n   t h e   i n s i d e
I told you I was lost
I n   t h e   m i d d l e   o f   m y   l i f e

I've always been kinda obsessed with Alice in Wonderland ❤

I know where I'm supposed to be
I know where I stay sane
I really don't see all the glee
I just feel the pain

I'd rather be dead than dying.

This is not my home
Not anymore

This is where I feel
Rotten to my core

It never should've happened
Dirty fucking whore

I shouldn't blame myself
Then, now, at all

I learned to feel good
Before you wrecked me
Now I just feel used
Like no one can save me

Filthy
Guilty
Kill me

Racing beat
Shivers
Lack of breath
Sickness
Dizzyness
Blaming
Pity
Headache
Emptyness
Stop it
Stop

Kiss me on the mouth and set me free
But please, don't bite

I just want to live.